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Vividness: 5/5
Recall: 3/5

I'm in a bar or something like that. There are a few friends and girl N. She has birthday that's why we celebrate it in this bar. I have the feeling that something isn't real, that something is wrong in here. I leave the table for a minute to go to the toilet. As I walk away, girl N. follows me. We stop a few meters in front of the toilet, but out of the sight of our friends. I still have an awkward feeling, she behaves really strange. She doesn't make any moves she use to make, no teasing , no jokes, nothing. I feel something special is going on. We start to kiss.I realize that this is a dream, because I know, she wouldn't never ever behave like this.
I calm myself and concentrate on the kiss. It feels really normal, like this is reality. I am very cautious because I know that I would loose the dream when I get too excited.
We stop the kiss and girl N. seems to be ashamed or something like that, just like she did something she will regret. I'm a bit confused cause I know that this reaction is caused by myself, well it's my dream. I know that what she feels is that what I would feel in real life. This emotion is really strong, it makes me sad. Girl N. starts to speak:

Girl N.: I don't know what is going on here. I feel so confused.
Me: I know what you are talking about. What does this mean.
Girl N.: maybe we should actually talk about what happened. But we can't do it now, the others will suspect something.

So one after the other we go back to the table
I loose lucidity and sit near her. I wait until we can leave the place, so that we could talk about it. But I don't really remember anymore what we should talk about. The kiss? The feelings? A possible relationship?

I don't know how the dream ended but I had a song stuck in my had when I got up. It was just a line:

I cant believe that you can't see
that you mean everything to me

It just happened that I remember some old dreams. This happens once in a while.
These dreams mean a lot for me, so I just wanted to share them

This 2 dreams are non-lucid. They are one of my most emotional awkward dreams I can remember involving a little bitch I know. So are you ready for some "mindblowing" dreams? So here you are:




I'm in class. I'm sitting in the third row and in front of me sits a girl named N. She's smiling and very happy. She has a new hairstyle, very different from the style she used to have. Next to me is good friend named L. I explained something to him (but I don't know what was the subject). He is listening to me. Suddenly, during my conservation, she leaned over my desk and kissed me on the cheek. I knew it was some kind of provocation. She starts laughing and she gives me a challenging look. I get angry, really angry and started shouting at her. I even wanted to beat her up, but I couldn't, because I knew, that she wanted that I overreact.

Second dream:

I'm at a really great party, music was great and I really had fun. Next to me stands my good friend L. and in front of me N. She was smiling and seemed to be really happy. I wonder why and ask her, why she's so happy. She tells me that she's in a relationship with me. My first thought was: "what a bitch! Just another provocation"
I look at her and suddenly I had the feeling that she told the truth. I whispered to my friend L., although the music was very loud. I asked him: "Am I really in a relationship with her?" Instantly I looked at N. who nodded. But L. said to me: " I don't think so" and he started smiling. I wasn't sure if he was right so I tried something: I went close to her and wanted to kiss her to feel if she's really in love with me. She refused and only turned her cheek to get the kiss on her cheek. So I was convinced that she lied. But suddenly, our lips touched and we had a really long kiss about ten seconds or so. I really felt her feelings for me, but suddenly I got afraid that I made a huge mistake and I got kicked out of my dream.

Hours of slep 11
Vividness: 3/5
Recall: 2/5
I'm in front of a club I use to go out sometime. A close friend of mine is also their. We walk in but we don't met a single guy from security. I'm a bit confused, but don't tell me any further questions. We enter and it seems that there are only twenty people in there. Also the bar was different from realityI find this odd but I just keep on walking inside. We go over the place the bar used to be and we turn to the right part of the dancefloor.
At the other side, there is the bar, but it looks like it was made of a few benches and of carton. Again I'm wondering what this has to mean. I ask my friend what the heck this means. He tells me that they are renovating the clubI believe him. We go to the bar and he asks e if I would like to have a beer. I said no 'cause I wasn't in the mood and sayed I should order a coke instead. He orders and he asks me for money. I give him coupons (like if we were at some open field concert). He gives me a coke and an hotdog. I eat it first (without remembering I just wanted a coke). While drinking my coke, he asks me if I would like to drink tequilla.
Again I said no and said that I have stomach ache. Behind me there was an Indonesian woman and she started to laugh. I ignore her at first. My friends start a conversation:

Friend: So what's going on between you and Nathalie?
Me: Nathalie? Well I told you last month that there is nothing going between me and her. Hey dude? Why are you so strange tonight?

Again the Indonesian woman starts to laugh. I turn myself towards her

Me: Why are you laughing at me?
DC: I just realized that I know you from somewhere.
Me: But I've never met you!
DC: I know, but it seemed that Nathalie talked to me about you. And you just fit in so perfectly in her description.
Friend: So you know Nathalie, right? So what do you know from her?

What the fuck is happening here? She starts to talk about her, about her boyfriend and such stuff. Suddently a friend of university appears. They stop her conversation.

Friend2: Hello Grischka. How are you
Me: A bit confused about the things that are going on here.
Friend2: Oh I know this feeling. There are days you wish you never left your bed

I awake.

Hours of sleep: 8
Recall:3/5
Vividness: 3/5

Oh my Gosh, what a crazy night

I'm somewhere. This sounds crazy, but I couldn't see at all, what was going on around. I didn't see anything, I didn't see a white page, or a black one. No. There is nothing. Kind of hard to explain, but there was really nothing. Strange.
This lasted about 5 seconds or so, than I saw one of my professor of university in front of me. He was talking to me, but I heard nothing. I just saw his lips moving, but no sound was coming out. After 3 seconds or so, his voice appeared slowly, than I could hear that he was saying [in German, his mother-tongue] that he had corrected my paper and that he wanted to speak a bit about it. He said, that we had to go in his mobile-home. I looked around me and I saw, that the void had disappeared, I was standing in a field, in front of me was a mobile-home. I had the feeling that I was in some circus or an amusement park.
His mobile-home was really tiny, I just thought:
- Well, it seems that professors don't earn that much money...
I was still confused, because I knew that he was one of the important researcher in human science at my university. Strange.
So I entered and I couldn't believe what I saw. This tiny mobile home had three big rooms about 4 meters high, 5 meters wide and 7 meter long. It looked like an old mansion or something like that, but it was decorated and built like a Swiss chalet. I was so impressed that I couldn't say anything. The professor said, as he closed the door:
- Well, I wanted to bring something familiar with me. You know, when you live away from your motherland, you get a bit nostalgic.

Just for info: he's Swiss

He offered me a seat at his bar (yes there was a bar too! ) and he talked to me, still in German:
- I corrected your paper and I was kind of amazed. You got nearly everything right, you did just one fault, but it isn't worth speaking about it. Well you got 18 of 20.
I wanted to converted it up to 60 points, but I had difficulties to calculate and after two or three tries, I finally got the right number. This confused me, because I'm good in math.
- But this isn't really the reason, why I wanted to talk to you. You gave an example of writing a novel in one question. I just wanted to know, if you write novels in your free-time.
Really? Did I wrote that? Well that's right, but I couldn't remember that I did it.
- Yes that's true, I said in German.
- Well, tell me a bit about it.
I wanted to explain a bit, but for some reason, the words didn't came out as I wanted. Although I'm a fluent German speaker and I write my novels in German, I just kept on using inappropriate words and expression to explain my activity as author. He looked at me really confused, I knew that I was making bad publicity for my writing skills. I felt so ashamed, like a little boy, who had broken an old porcelain vase. I saw that he was smiling and was kind of amused about that. I stopped my speech and I ran away

Hours of sleep: 8h
Recall:1/5
Vividness: 3/5

I'm sitting in my living room. My parents are sitting next to me. Both sit on two sofas. I'm in the middle and I'm sitting on a couch. I staring in front of me, looking at the place, where the christmas tree normally stays. But it's gone. I don't realize it, but this emptiness kind of depresses me. I look away and realize, that next to me Nathalie sits. She doesn't say anything. She's bored and stares at the TV, which is switch off. I know something is wrong: everything seems to be frozen, Nathalie doesn't know where I live and my parents don't know about her. I want to get involved in some kind of conversation with her, but I can't. i don't know why, but I can't

Really depressing dream and this just before Christmas

Hello. I had a series of dreams. They were at some places a bit scary. I'm surprised that I didn't realize that I was dreaming, because they were a it weird. Only good thing is, that girl n. didn't show up lol

Hours of sleep: 8h
Vividness: 4/5
Recall: 4/5

1. I'm in a mallI wonder if this is a new dream sign lol. There are a lot of people. Something isn't right, the people are nervous. I'm afraid and don't know what is going on. I want to leave and walk towards a door. But it's closed. I get more afraid and start to panic a bit. I'm nervous and go to a DC. He tells me that we are trapped in this mall and something odd is going on: although the mall is closed and no one gets outsides, some people disappear. I realize this and I get nervous. There is a security guy. He's nervous too. He wants that we go on a different floor. He tells us that we have to hide us somewhere. Most of the people go somewhere else. I go upstairs in the second floor. I go in a broom cupboard. There is also someone else in it: there is a guy, who is really nervous. I ask him if he knew what was going on. He tells me, that some kind of creature is going around in the mall. It catches the people and looked them up in a room too eat them afterwards I panic. I ask him if we are safe in this cupboard. He tells me that this creature was sighted in the first floor. I ask him where the police is. He tells me that most of them are already trapped and few of them run away. They locked up the mall, that this creatures doesn't escape. I get angry about that and I leave the cupboard, although it's dangerous. I go back to the stairs and look down. There is this creature. It looks like a big-foot or something like that. I panic and run away.
I awake. I have my eyes closed. I'm still scared. I don't want to open my eyes because I remembered immediately the last time when I had an nightmare: I awoke and had some weird hallucinations, had the feeling that there was someone who started to pull my legs. So I decided to let my eyes closed, because I already started to get some weird feelings. I tried to calm down and fell asleep immediately
I have still this paranoid feeling. But this time I'm in falling down the sky I'm not alone, there are a few other guys. We are skydiving. A second after, I'm already at the ground. I talk with a DC and say him that it's the second time I did this. I've never skydived before lol. We look a the sky and I see that there are others skydivers. They are dressed in blue. I start running towards the place they are landing. I ask them who they are and they said:
- We don't know, but we are no aliens
What the heck? I want to say something but something terrible happens. We see a burning plane in the sky. It crashes in the ground. I'm scared to death.
My view changes and I see that this crash isn't real, but that I'm watching TV. I start laughing. A family DC shows up and he's angry about the film. He says that this film is shitty and he doesn't want to watch it.
Note: This doesn't make sense at all.
3. I'm in a bus. A university professor enters. In real life, she is really talkative. I hope that she doesn't sits down next to me, because I don't want to speak. BUt she sits down next to me. I say hello, but she doesn't replies. She doesn't start a conversation and doesn't talk at all. I'm surprised. After a few minutes she leaves and get out of the bus.
A second after, I'm standing in front of my home. There are a few friends. They want to talk with me. But I have a really depressing feeling. I'm apathetic and don't show any kind of feeling, although I'm crying in my thoughts.
4. I'm sitting in a bar. In front of me is a table. There is an empty glass a bottle with something alcoholic and a bottle of pineapple juice. I have to mix my drink at my own. I don't have a clue what I'm doing there nor, what drink I ordered.

I finally awake.
PS: Something is wrong with me. These dreams (and the previous ones) reflect this. Unfortunately.

Hello : / My dreams get weirder and weirder. I realize that something bothers me deep inside me. I don't know... I'm afraid what I may find deep inside me...

Hours of sleep: 7h
Vividness: 2/5
Recall:3/5

I'm standing outsides in a street. I have to wheels and on one a seat is fixed. I sit on the seat and I make movements with my hands if I'm driving a bike. I suddenly start driving and it reminds me of a motorbike. But the handlebars are invisible. I don't see the engine either.
I somehow realise that this is a dream. But it doesn't bothers really. I keep on driving and suddenly, I'm in a mall. I drive around and I get of my bike. I want to go to the cashiers, But I circle through the mall. Every time I'm near the cashiers, the open ones are full, so I keep circling. A few times while making a new turn, I meet girl N. . Every time she sits on a barstool. Next to her is a guy. She always says when she sees me: "That's my new boyfriend" and kisses him as long as I can see her. While kissing him she looks at me. Her eyes are saying, that she just wants to tease me.
I repeat this scenario at least 10 times and I finish in the moment that I see that all cashiers are full. I don't know what happens next. I end up in a blank room,sitting in a corner, face to the wall and I cry.

O Gosh... What do I want in Reality... CRAP!

Hours of sleep: 9.0 (Yeah! )
Vividness: 2/5
Recall: 1/5 (O no! )

I'm walking through a snowy street. Next to me is a girl: it's an ex-classmate. We are talking about something, I don't really know about what. Only thing I remember is, that I tried to develop our superficial relationship, which is limited to "Hello! I'm ok! And you? How was your week" , to something more deep. I tried to make some jokes as I use to do. But she doesn't even smiles....
I get a bit disappointed and I feel that I'm loosing her attention. So I think about doing something weird.
While walking, I let fall myself at the ground and pretend that I slipped out on the ice.
Note: Where the hell does the snow comes from? No snow has been falling since February.
I'm lying on the ground and I'm spinning around. I stretch my arm out, that she can help me to get up. But I wanted to make her fall by pulling her hand.
Note: What was I thinking? That makes no sense!
Only problem is this: She doesn't gives a damn! She looks at me as I'm spinning stupidly around on the ground.
This keeps on going a few seconds, a lot of people come around and watch my performance. She simply goes away.
I try to get up on my own and let fall my purse. I see that an hobo picks it up. He gives it me back. I thank him and he goes away. I look in it and I see that my credit card is missing. I start shouting to catch the people's attention on the hobo, but they didn't move and just look at me stupidly

The End.
PS: When I see this hobo again, I'm going to kick his ass!

Hello. Man my subconscious is really though
Hours of sleep: 6.5
Vividness: 2/5
Recall:2/5

I'm standing in front of my old school. I enter it with someone (a friend). She says that we could use this chance to see our ex-biology-teacher.
I don't want to see him. I know that he's against to the fact that I'm studying education. I try to avoid the cafeteria, because I know he's there. I start arguing with her, try to find some excuse to not go there. She gets angry and says:
"You cannot run away your hole life! You are too afraid to see him face to face, that he says that you are making a mistake by choosing education and not chemistry or biology. And you know that he might be right. You know that you have got potential to became a good researcher. And you will never know if he's right! Screw you!"

... Well ... No comment

Hello :/ It's a bit late but I was too busy to write my dream down. And this dream just reflects the evening I had in my favourite club.... in some way. lol

Hours of sleep: 6h
Vividness: 3/5
Recall 1/5

I'm in my favourite club. There are a few friends hanging around. It's already late, a friend, who was the diver, said to me that it was time to go. We walked out, I had some kind of strange feeling. I had the feeling that something terrible is going to happen. But i don't care and we walk out.
Outsides, there is a street. In front of us is a pub or club.

This place doesn't exist in reality. I remember that this place was already a few times in my dreams. One time it was an hotel, an other time a pub.

I know that something is different, but I don't question reality. I say to my friend we should go in, because it's an awesome place. But he is a bit angry: he wants to go home, because he's tired.
I don't know what happened next. We ended up in a club. This strange feeling doesn't disappear. I know something horrible will happen.

...

Well, something strange happened. Suddenly girl N. shows up. She wears an awful t-shirt, which is too short and reveals her belly. AND... it's a beer-belly!!!!!! I just think WTF!?!?!? She starts speaking and says that:
- I don't care any more about my appearance. When no-one wants my body, I have the right to eat what I want and as much as I want. F*ck you guys!!!!!

Note: I first remember the part of the pub. But the part with girl N. came into my mind as I was sitting in the kitchen drinking my coffee for breakfast. AND it gave me a strange feeling.OMG, what is my brain thinking subconsciously??? It's kind of disturbing

Hello again.

Well, as the title says, I found in my dreams a very special person I wish meet for real. These dreams are half lucid/half non-lucid..

I'm in a building. I don't remember exactly what I was doing there, but it was something in relation to university. I meet a girl, she looks familiar. I ask her for some advice and she's very helpful. Soon a conservation is build up. While talking to her I was flirting a bit by making some funny remarks which made her laugh, speaking in avery elaborated language. AND in addition, she likes that. I feel that she's attracted by me, she often smiles and gives me very special looks (I don't know how to describe them) which were saying that she finds me nice (by the way eyes are never lying).
I also remember very well her face: normally, the faces in my dreams are blurry or not distinguishable, sometimes they aren't even there). I also know that I've already seen her somewhere, but I don't know where.
Well our conversation was very long and quite intensive. But after sometime I unfortunately had to leave But I promised her, that we will meet again.

In the meantime I had these Fragments.

Than I had a second dream: I'm in a restaurant or in a bar. In front of me sits exactly the same girl as previously. She is constantly smiling. She looked really beautiful with her brown long hair. I was really amazed by that: I've never seen so beautiful brown eyes, which were so glittering and so friendly... I realized that I love her and she's maybe interested in me. I want to tell her my feelings, but I don't know how to do it in an appropriate way. I continue my conversation, but than took one of her hands. I want to see how she reacts. She is pleased and also gives me the other hand. We both stand up and I wanted to confess my feelings. But I didn't know how... BUT this wasn't a problem, because she already knew what I'm saying to her. She says to me that she shares the same feelings. We kiss. I realize that her kiss is odd, that I'm not having some intensive feelings or so. I REALIZE THAT THIS IS A DREAM. I'm so happy that I realized it. But my feelings are to intense....

I woke up . I just was: "NOOOOOOOO!" Why do I awake in these situations??? I did a RC. I'm no longer dreaming. I thought a long time about these dreams. I tried to auto-suggest to have the same dream or a related one. I fall asleep while thinking of her.

I enter in a classroom. It's English class but I don't have any books or so. In addition I have in reality no english-courses. I looked for someone. and SHE was there, sitting alone. She was really happy to see me again. Me too. I sit down next to her. She gives me her hand to show me that she still loves me. I give her a kiss. I wanted to say something but a teacher was suddenly there. She (the teacher) was very angry about something. The class is boring so I look out the window. The window and the wall disappears and I see a beach. The sky is red. Someone, who also looked outsides started to say out loud: "O no do you see this?" everyone looks now. We see that a group of hundred whales are swimming towards the beach. Some of them already stranded. The teacher become even more angry that no-one pays attention. But nobody cares. We all go outsides to help the whales.
Outsides it is very chilly; a storm is coming up. I try too help a stranded whale: it was a miniature whale, just as big as pig or so. It starts dying in my hands. I'm really sad and run towards the water. But it's too late: it's already dead.
Suddenly something odd happens: the whale transforms in a T-Shirt and it flies away. I soon realized somehow that it was again a dream. A little girl comes towards me and says to me that I had to go back at school to write my English-essay. I ignored her and walked a bit. I didn't pay attention to my surroundings, I probably missed something. But I just wanted to meet my soul-mate again. Suddenly I'm in front of her. She's upset because of the dying whales. she knows that one of them died in my hands. She says to me that I don't have to blame my-self, that's not my fault that it died. She gives me hug, I pay attention in which way she gives me a hug (a friendly on or a loving I don't know why I pay attention on it: it's a dream and I get hugged as I wish it too. I loose lucidity. She wants to leave to go to her house on the beach. I accept.

My alarm clock wakes me up.
And I'm still amazed

Lucidity scale: 3/5

Hello
Got 2 Lucids in a row I'm really amazed! My last lucid was in august, but I did it again! I wanted to thank Serenity for her Intro-class which made me progress over the last weeeks

1. I'm standing in a room. Girl N. was in front of me and started kissing me. (It's a recurring dream that I always have when I'm kind of confused through the day). I feel that her kisses are really odd, they didn't feel like real kisses. I remembered that she wouldn't kiss me so intensively in reality (kisses all over the face lol), that I hate her and I don't want any relationship with her. My thought was: "This is a dream! " I want to do something, but she doesn't stop kissing me. I than concentrate on the thought :"Just go and leave me!". Surprisingly, it works: she stops and goes a few steps away from me. That's the moment that I really realise that I'm dreaming. Everything around me looks much more vivid and bright. I get really excited

I wake up. I was like: " O No! damn it!". I did a RC in hope that it was a false awakening. But it was not. I relaxed a bit and fall asleep immediately.

2. I'm in a lake. In front of me is DC. He/she is swimming. I'm lying on a air mattress. The DC starts a conversation:
- Hello! I just wanted to say to you that it isn't safe to lay on such a mattress on a lake.... You might just fall off and drown....
Exactly in this moment, I fall off and disappear under the surface. My perspective change in third person and I see how the mattress finally flies away.
I'm suddenly at my university, someone is holding class. I just think: "That's odd.. how I did I get here?" I pinch my nose. I can still breath. OMG I'm dreaming . The surroundings get really blurry and I feel that the dreams fades away. I think " O NOoOoO". I remember to rub my hands to stabilize the dream, but it doesn't works and I awake

That's it! I hope that I soon will have another lucid!

Lucidity scale: 3/5